"There's a Funeral in my Brain"

This prompt relates to my poem because it was based from a poem Emily Dickinson wrote and she has similar writing styles in most of her poems so I think this would relate to any poem she would have written.

Self-pity can be mistaken for depression or sorrow. The subtle difference between the three is who the speaker is. Self-pity is how an individual feel about themselves and depression and sorrow are how an individual feels about a subject. In Emily Dickinson’s poem “There’s a Funeral in my Brain,” Dickinson portrays self-pity in a light that is first hopeful then indifferent.

The attitude of the author is accepting because she knows she is tired and fed up with life and she acknowledges that it is her time to leave because she has done all that she can in this world. She has hope but she lost it. She was regretful. She literally was depressed she thought she was just done with life and everything and she missed out because she stood out. She felt the weight of all those who bring her down and it made her think of reality and how short life is. We get pounded with all this information constantly like the beating of a drum and it's hard to retain all of it and even care about it and at some point we reach our breaking point which is why she went numb. She didn't care. She can only absorb involuntarily the actions around her and she feels alone. Her sanity broke and she fell to her death and stopped caring. "Plank in reason," a plank is thin board above water and when you fall you die. So her plank was the slim truth and reason she had in like and when her reason wasn't valid anymore she fell. "Heavens a bell and I but an ear," she was made to hear the things she Donets want to hear. She is made to go to heaven and was inevitably going to go there. Ears can't not hear, it was an involuntarily action. The word wrecked has connotations of a mistake or something not meant to happen. She didn't mean or plan to be alone or an outsider, it just happened. The authors attitude shifts in the last stanza when she describes falling off her plank because before that it was more optimistic like she had a chance but was just sad. The poem mentions something broken and in the beginning if the poem it was talking about her potential or the things that made her. The shift was from no action to action. 

“I felt a Funeral in my Brain” is a poem that portrays the self-pity of both optimism and pessimism. Dickinson showed the raw emotion of being an outsider and she felt the pain of being something that didn’t work.  She became just something in the wind and was indifferent when she woke up from her reality. This was a poem about someone who was but never became.